130818 08.47

Not much sleep, but I am still fairly energized.  On my way to Gothenburg to have a meeting about school development and Sustainable development, and then back to Stockholm. Feels wired to go back and at the same time it feels really good. Have so many new people, new found friends in my life, so much more experiences and loads of new memories. And I have amazing people and loved ones at home, in Sweden and Stockholm that I now will be able to see again.

Yesterday we had an amazing event with Race for the Baltic. Loads of signatures collected, people engaged and #BeersfortheBaltic afterwards. The team met and we had an intense conversation about all that is now going to happen. J and me talked and just a little bit and it feels like we’re already on the right tracks. One intense month in front of me and I feel like I am somehow coming back to life.

Left with a train 6.33 this morning, didn’t have time to say Goodbye to the whole team. Sending my love to you guys.

130817 08.01

Paris, originally uploaded by enchans.

At the Hotel having breakfast, one hour before we’re supposed to meet. Heavenly coffee. Just shower and then I’m all good. It’s raining, but hopefully it will stop before 11. Im already soaked by the rain plus a welcome-splash a car gave me when I arrived with the bus.

Waking up.

130817 00:16

DSC00561, originally uploaded by enchans.

On a bus to Copenhagen right now, late. As all of my transports seem to be nowadays.

04.45
Fell asleep quite quickly. The strain of decorating a home for a Fairy party and then being at the Fairy party and also listening to and trying to speak German during the evening seem to have knocked me out.

Now on the Ferry from Germany to Denmark and I am longing to have breakfast, coffee and a shower before the event today. The Hotel is close to the station so it will be easy to get there.

Talking about moving to Berlin is getting closer and closer all the time and on Wednesday I’ll have a phone interview for a job there. Cross your fingers. I’ll tell you what kind of position it is later.

130815 14.06

DSC00527, originally uploaded by enchans.

Berlin and I am trying to get work done, but I keep on finding places where I can only be logged in to the web one hour at the time. Darn this city. Too many hipsters taking over cafés with their laptops so that the owners feel the need to restrict the possibility to get internet access. Pay for the humongous plate of pasta I just ate and then off again. Find another place. Hopefully where I can sit for a couple of hours. Want to go to Pannierstrasse, but in Warschauer Strasse I know a place where there is limitless internet access. We’ll see…

15.40

Back at café Futuro at Pannierstrasse, been here before and with their cheesecake, coffee and Internet I can live.

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130814 10.29

In Berlin at my friends flat. S and L let me stay here for some nights.

Arrived in Berlin the day before yesterday, jumped of the train, was going to figure out where to go and where I could find lockers and suddenly R stood there. I knew we were going to be in Berlin at the same time, but that we would actually be on the same train form Hannover and meet like this at the station. Didn’t really think that would happen. Thought Berlin was big, but I guess if the world is a small place, Berlin is even smaller. Sorted Rs ticket to Krakow, left our bags at Rs hostel and then went to grab something to eat. I left to meet up with the sister of S to get the keys for the apartment and then grab a beer with E, A and their friends. Always nice to see them. A is going to Australia in January or February: You could come with us. E is going to have a room to let here in Berlin: You could move to Berlin. Maybe I will.

Yesterday I went to the co-working space, café and bar St Oberholz. Sat and worked, then lunch and East Side gallery with R. Dinner, and had the best pasta ever just next to Alexanderplatz. Food lovers both of us. I went back to Oberholz, R back to the hostel to get ready for leaving in the morning. One less distraction. You’re right. Might see you again, might not. I guess that’s life and what we need to deal with.

130812 12.55

DSC00496, originally uploaded by enchans.

I have one more train ride after this that will be with my Interrail pass. Right now we’re heading for Hannover in order to change to go to Berlin. This train is delayed 5 minutes and we’ll see if I manage to catch the other one. I stayed in Kassel one more night while it got late and I would not have been in Berlin until 12 or 01 in the night.

Yesterday I went up to the Hercules statue and looked at the tourists and the water. Then I got lost in the woods and the road seemd like it would never end. Some kids that I passed sang “Wenn komme wir zu ende”. I enjoyed the silence before I found my way back to the water. V from the hostel and me went to Buga See and went for a swim. The water was warmer then I’d thought and the swim became longer than I’d thought. V showed me the art around the city from the Documenta exhibitions and the Orangerie. We arrived at a small Biergarten and I think it was around that time I decided I’d stay in Kassel one more night. I could stay at Vs place.

There was a concert and the band was Irish, Glen Hansard & band. I didn’t recognize it at first, but V noticed early that this was music like The Frames. One of the last songs made me react more. What was that song… The movie “Once” an Irish movie. The actor and the musician Glen Hansard. The song is played in the movie. And I am adding a new song to my list for my travels. A song that is connected to Kassel.

15.09
Last train ride on my Interrail. One hour left to Berlin now and I managed to sleep some. Eat two pieces of Energy chocolate which I bought in Aachen (Same thing as I once got for free at the Spa Hotel I worked at, but now I know how it’s supposed to taste like. The once I got where old and was going to be thrown away. Even with that in my body I fell asleep.

In Bruges I had a coffee and to that I got a small package with something sweet, but I didn’t want it right then. Offered it to R but none of us wanted it and I just put it in my bag instead. It’s just in Sweden we don’t really have that. Everywhere else I go in the world you get a small package with something sweet with your coffee. Pretty much without any exception. Just now I opened it. A small waffle. Sweet and tasting a little bit like ginger and cinnamon. Flashbacks to Bruges.

I have been feeling a little bit lost, and I guess I still do. For some reason I have had the feeling I am leaving all the time. Instead of the feeling of gaining experiences and getting new friends I feel like I am losing them, I am leaving the places I’ve been to and I am leaving the people. Will I ever see these places and the people again? I don’t know. I feel at home everywhere, I see amazing things and I meet amazing people. Friendly, fun and adorable. Kindhearted, honest, open minded and with big hearts inviting you in. I don’t want to lose them, I want to keep them.

V kind of got me back on track. V saw my state of mind, I couldn’t really hide it. The fact that I need to see that I am not loosing anything, but that I am lucky to have met all of these people and seen all of these places. As my darling Á wrote to me: Your brother must really know you well”. And I really think he does. I needed this trip. And I still do, because it not to an end yet. Cliché; I am just starting my life and it will always be a journey and an adventure. I will never stop learning. Getting to know myself, humans, the world. This trip will never end. Amazing what one meeting can do to you. All the feelings, it feels like they’re going to knock you unconscious. I’ve met a lot of people that made my head spin and my heart skip a beat, maybe that is why I am also feeling overwhelmed. Almost all the time. I am happy I met you V and that I stayed in Kassel one more night. It meant a lot. Probably more than you can imagine. Maybe we’ll see each other soon again.

20 minutes before arriving in Berlin Hbf. Life. What a crazy thing.

130811 10.36

DSC00382, originally uploaded by enchans.

Been up for a while and had breakfast. Internet isn’t working and even though all personnel here at the youth hostel in Kassel are really nice, they are either not really informed or they are not really flexible when it comes to rules. Have wasted 1 hour trying to get internet connection and the effect of the coffee and even the energy chocolate I ate are fading away. Eventually I had to pay for a new ticket instead of the reception just giving me a new one. I would call flexibility service. I did not get that this time. I need to leave this place and go to the park which is a UNESCO world heritage and the biggest hillside park in Europe. Going to look at the Hercules statue and the “water games” which is some kind of fountain.

The sun is looking through the clouds and I might go swimming this afternoon. V and P from Kassel who gave me ice cream yesterday offered me to go with them. I’m going to do that. No museums, not the exhibition that apparently have made this city famous, just nature. And I’ll hopefully get to Berlin in time. Time to get things sorted for the day and leave this hostel.

I wish I had more time. More of life right now. Feels like it’s running through my fingers right now. I can’t think and I am thinking to much.