130728 03.00

Have had an amazing day with my brother, T and my brothers friend F. We started with breakfast and then went into town to watch “Iron man” a threeathon race in Zürich and I am realizing more and more that I really want to start to move again. I want to start working out, somehow, because that makes me feel good in so many ways. 

After Iron man we picked up F and went to the Rheinfall, Eurpoes biggest waterfall and then to Rhein-something right next to it and swam and the others was sunbathing. I stayed in the shadow. I did learn my lesson yesterday when I burnt my ass. We went shopping for food and stuff for BBQ and then off to the riverside after bouncing back home, preparing food and BBQ. Just sat there with the sun setting, playing the Swedish game Kubb, and we brought our swimsuits so that we could go into the water a couple of times.

Went back home and watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Buttons. I rarely cry. But for some reason this made me cry. I guess it reminded me of how precious life is and that nothing is for sure. In the end of the movie they say that “some are born dancers, some are born…”, but this is where I think they are wrong. You’re not born to be living a certain life. You choose, you're forced to choose between things and sometimes life gets in the way of your plans and choices. You have to adapt to the circumstances that you are given, and sometimes those circumstances are really restraining and sometimes they are really beneficial. I am not saying it is easy at all, and life seem to offer us stupid paths to choose from a lot of times. But the final decision is up to you. The final decision of how you want to live your life. We need people around us to support us in our choices and sometimes a helping hand, but the final decision is our own.

What if we were born into something and we didn't like it? Would we then be born to be miserable? I don't think I was born to do what I do, I chose it and in two years I might choose something else. I choose what makes me happy. For me, the meaning of life is to do the things that makes you happy as long as you do not hurt other people.

Tomorrow/ today/ Sunday, we’ll have brunch and just relax in Zürich, no excursions if we do not really want to. On Monday morning I’ll go by train to Paris.

Hello my French brothers and sisters.

I will stay with my beloved M. See you soon.